After having time to process the news of the NEW Mass on my liver, I am doing much better mentally. I realized that I didn’t anticipate having something like this to deal with so soon. I thought I would get a BREAK for a year or so. But I guess that is not the case or meant to be. My real worry came with my leave situation at work. I am in the hole with sick leave. My mind was all over the place thinking of what I may have to go thru in January 2007 & how much time I would need to be off again. This is the reason I was so upset & down. If the rest of the year goes as planned, I will be out of the hole with my leave in January. I am hopeful to have 2007 to build my leave balances again. But regardless of the outcome, everything will work out … it always does.
To handle everything, I am coping/dealing/thinking about things in COMPARTMENTS. In other words, allowing myself a certain amount of time to THINK ABOUT the Issue, then “putting it away” and moving on to the next task. This method has worked for me in the past year & I plan to continue doing it. This is the only way I can cope right now. And why I can only handle the current day/week at a time. It’s too hard to think in the long term.