This is an email I sent to my immediate Family only. I share this because I believe you can get a better sense of the struggle & raw emotion I was feeling on March 1, 2006.
” Just a note to my immediate family members as to my current status. As you all know, I had an infection in my Hickman Line & it was removed on Monday. I have been on a strong antibiotic & will be for the next 10 days. This brings with it all knew issues. First of all, I am trying to “learn to eat” all over again. I am currently at applesauce, mashed potatoes, thin pretzels & for supper, I ate some boxed macaroni ‘n cheese. I am AGAIN nauseous most of the time. (Remember: I was throwing up every day last week until we figured out the problem.) The medication has wonderful side affects of nausea, diarrhea, etc & I do have some of them too.
As you may have guessed, I am not much up to talking right now. I can be sitting & talking and the next minute ready to puke. It’s no picnic. I am not complaining just trying to get YOU to understand a little glimpse of my world. I cried to Oneida today about all of this … I didn’t think it would be this HARD. I am a little down & broken today as I try to again readjust eating, drinking, etc.
One bright spot for the day, Norma stopped by. She brought me a couple of hats to wear. She is to bring more! Can’t wait to see what she has in her closet because she is a hat wearer! I hope you all understand … Lisa”